Confession

Know without knowing

Curiosity growing

Obvious showing

Climax

Explosion
Of sporadic convulsions
Caused by illicit
Subject
Matters
However Explicit
In character
Catching this rendezvous
From a birds eye view
Presents only in body, not in mind
Cerebral inclined
Beyond ecstasy
Undulating and engaging
Every sense
Ever since
We commenced
Light headed
So my thoughts are transparent
And its apparent
That it was my aim
To indulge in such pleasurable pain
Tried to refrain
When your essence called my name
I had to answer
Relishing every moment
Of enjoyment
While you ravish me like cancer
Santa
Couldnt have govern a better gift
If he wrapped and put a bow on it
Until finally
We
Spontaneously combusted
Volcanically erupted
Explosions
Of sporadic convulsions
Originated from lust and impulsives

Seduction (art of desires)

Shhhh....
Dont talk
Just touch me
Kiss me
Softly
Right there
Pull me close
Bite
Hard...
Harder
Whisper
Like that
Let's exchange moans
I'll kiss you here
There
Push you on the bed
Climb on top
You feel me against you
How it feel?
You want me?
Say it
Say you want me
Why you made me miss u?
Licking your lips biting
Smiling
Can i have you?
All of you
I want it
Pinning your hand down
Sliding the tip of my tongue down from your neck to the center of your body
Nibbling
Slidng up getting out of bed
Walking away smiling
Make me know you want it

Holding You Down

repression in secession
constant setbacks
devoid of kick backs
canat shake loose the quick sand
springboard to kickstand
standing my ground
always holding you down
dizzy from circles
reds,blacks,grey and purples
never green
but still you lean
on me to keep you strong
even though you're wrong--
DEAD WRONG
still i stay
without me you'll sway
lose your grip
take dip
or plunge
powers that be will make you lunch
the good girl behind the bad boy
coy
in the public eye
never on the front line
brightened your light, dimmed mine
let you borrow my shine
made the ultimate sacrifice
now im unfulfilled and this wont suffice
not waiting for you to come around
while i continue holding you down

Does Mine Matter??

Ambitions listed
Confessions
Kissed it
Somehow must've
Missed it
The big debate
Holds little weight
When your focus
is unfocused
And the actions
Go Unnoticed
Origami
Unfolded
Pottery
Not molded
Or the path
Not chosen
Decision clear
Incision here
Lend a listening ear
Incoherent chatter
Does mine matter??

Needy

i wish fo love lost,unsure if i can hold on
while my fragile ego, is thrown and tossed
i long for solid ground, someone to put their arms around me
i long for peace, oh how i long just to be happy
someone at last to love me
sometimes i get so lonely, i wish you could understand
that i need someone to love me, want me, need me
at times i feel so needy, allowing you the upperhand
i fel so foolish, so vurnerable, so willing to be open with you
it becomes so hard for me to say, that i need you because i havent known you for long
at times i let my pride speak, another day passes by
yet i refuse to bend, because in my eyes that would be weak
im too strong for you to see me cry
but im just a friend so i cant show much

wish i didnt feel so needy

Addiction to Writing

I have this addiction
every time i write its a release
i tell what i feel...
dont care what time of day it is
if it heavy on my heart..
my writing takes a burden off of this..
sometimes it hard to talk to family
especially if they are friends..
so i take the time to talk to my therapist...
the journal and pen..
but under these circumstances i use this keyboard