Confession

Know without knowing

Curiosity growing

Obvious showing

Climax

Explosion
Of sporadic convulsions
Caused by illicit
Subject
Matters
However Explicit
In character
Catching this rendezvous
From a birds eye view
Presents only in body, not in mind
Cerebral inclined
Beyond ecstasy
Undulating and engaging
Every sense
Ever since
We commenced
Light headed
So my thoughts are transparent
And its apparent
That it was my aim
To indulge in such pleasurable pain
Tried to refrain
When your essence called my name
I had to answer
Relishing every moment
Of enjoyment
While you ravish me like cancer
Santa
Couldnt have govern a better gift
If he wrapped and put a bow on it
Until finally
We
Spontaneously combusted
Volcanically erupted
Explosions
Of sporadic convulsions
Originated from lust and impulsives

Seduction (art of desires)

Shhhh....
Dont talk
Just touch me
Kiss me
Softly
Right there
Pull me close
Bite
Hard...
Harder
Whisper
Like that
Let's exchange moans
I'll kiss you here
There
Push you on the bed
Climb on top
You feel me against you
How it feel?
You want me?
Say it
Say you want me
Why you made me miss u?
Licking your lips biting
Smiling
Can i have you?
All of you
I want it
Pinning your hand down
Sliding the tip of my tongue down from your neck to the center of your body
Nibbling
Slidng up getting out of bed
Walking away smiling
Make me know you want it

Holding You Down

repression in secession
constant setbacks
devoid of kick backs
canat shake loose the quick sand
springboard to kickstand
standing my ground
always holding you down
dizzy from circles
reds,blacks,grey and purples
never green
but still you lean
on me to keep you strong
even though you're wrong--
DEAD WRONG
still i stay
without me you'll sway
lose your grip
take dip
or plunge
powers that be will make you lunch
the good girl behind the bad boy
coy
in the public eye
never on the front line
brightened your light, dimmed mine
let you borrow my shine
made the ultimate sacrifice
now im unfulfilled and this wont suffice
not waiting for you to come around
while i continue holding you down

Does Mine Matter??

Ambitions listed
Confessions
Kissed it
Somehow must've
Missed it
The big debate
Holds little weight
When your focus
is unfocused
And the actions
Go Unnoticed
Origami
Unfolded
Pottery
Not molded
Or the path
Not chosen
Decision clear
Incision here
Lend a listening ear
Incoherent chatter
Does mine matter??

Needy

i wish fo love lost,unsure if i can hold on
while my fragile ego, is thrown and tossed
i long for solid ground, someone to put their arms around me
i long for peace, oh how i long just to be happy
someone at last to love me
sometimes i get so lonely, i wish you could understand
that i need someone to love me, want me, need me
at times i feel so needy, allowing you the upperhand
i fel so foolish, so vurnerable, so willing to be open with you
it becomes so hard for me to say, that i need you because i havent known you for long
at times i let my pride speak, another day passes by
yet i refuse to bend, because in my eyes that would be weak
im too strong for you to see me cry
but im just a friend so i cant show much

wish i didnt feel so needy

Addiction to Writing

I have this addiction
every time i write its a release
i tell what i feel...
dont care what time of day it is
if it heavy on my heart..
my writing takes a burden off of this..
sometimes it hard to talk to family
especially if they are friends..
so i take the time to talk to my therapist...
the journal and pen..
but under these circumstances i use this keyboard

Some Of My Fav Quotes

• to be great is to be misunderstood; so yu may misunderstand me; but never underestimate me
• Life is one big road with lots of signs. So when you riding through the ruts, don't complicate your mind. Flee from hate, mischief and jealousy. Don't bury your thoughts, put your vision to reality. Wake up and live! - Bob Marley
• Who are you to judge the life I live?. I know im not perfect & i dont live to be. But before you start pointing fingers, make sure your hands are clean. - Bob Marley
• Don't forget your history, nor your destiny. - Bob Marley
• Don't gain the world and lose your soul, wisdom is better than silver or gold. - Bob Marley
• Herb is the healing of a nation. Alcohol is the destruction. - Bob Marley
• In this bright future you can't forget your past.- Bob Marley

In The Morning

I can feel his breath as if he's right in my face
Leaning in getting ready to kiss me
I can feel his embrace
So tight
So secure
Embracing for seconds
then minutes
We dont want to let go
I can see his smile
It brightens up this room
Brings life back in where it was once gloom
I hear him speak
He puts me in a trance with words that sound like music to my ears
I can feel him slowly caress my body while i slowly exhale
He is my drug that puts me to sleep
Feeling content and he settles
my restless spirit
I see it all so vividly
and  i think to myself
What an awsome dream
it felt so real
Then the sun creeps through the blinds
Its morning
Time to rise
and as i begin to open my eyes
i couldnt believe it
it wasnt a dream
for this man
The man i was missing
Longing for
Dreaming about
was in fact there with me
and the whole night actually did happen
for this time it wasnt a dream
So i smiled to myself
Leaned in and
Kissed him good morning
For what a good morning it was
My Mr.Sexy Chocolate 
Laying here beside me holding me

Our First Kiss

The first time i saw you, curiousity struck my mind
Who is this man? So cool, so sexy, and so refined
As you got close to me and arousing sensation overpowered my organic structure
A warm sensation flowed through me and my neck i began to feel the moisture
Mesmorized by those ebony eyes and your smooth chocolate brown complexion
I could see the outline of my face which showed my distinguished Reflection
Eyeing me seductively i became absorbed in such a magnificent specimen
i was ready to board your ship, with only you as the captain
With uninhibited actions engaging you into my innocence
You took me through the motions giving me very admirable guideance
Awakening every inch of my pulsating essence
Your lips moved swiftly with such masculine brilliance
Drawing my bottom lip into your mouth while slowly absorbing my soul
I realized we were kissing for the first time and my mind was spinning out of control

Forbidden Fruit

Im feeling you far more than i should

Its understood

We can never be more than friends

Even that depends

On progression

Of my Infatuation 

Started as out an innocent crush

Now im yearning your touch

Superfluous annotations

Accompany subtle cannotations

Of you and me

That can be

Im with "he"

Still i sleep and there you are

Admiring you from afar

Complexities delete physical

Insert spiritual AND mental

Wonder if you know i meant all

I've said

Missed all you've read

No matter much how

Because "we" is off limits

Being timid

Tip-toeig around the issue

Wishing i didnt miss you

Trying not to miss use 

The like ive found

In "find" because its genuine

The apple of HIS eye

Wanting YOU to take a bite

Maybe i'll see

You next lifetime

You can pick from my apple tree

For now its something we cant do 

In the garden labeled: FORBIDDEN FRUIT